[Hope]

It is not you, it is the Bible.

The Bible has plenty of verses that will contradict your belief about Jesus and there is no way to reconcile the contradictions. The Bible produces all sorts of Christian denominations, and they all conflict with one another. 

Who has the truth among the Christians? The Catholics? The Pentecostals? The Evangelicals? The Unitarians? You don't know. You just anyhow believe what your church tells you to believe.

We have chosen some of those messengers above others.Allah spoke directly to some, and raised some high in rank. To Jesus, son of Mary, We gave clear proofs and supported him with the holy spirit.If Allah had willed, succeeding generations would not have fought ˹among themselves˺ after receiving the clear proofs. But they differed—some believed while others disbelieved. Yet if Allah had willed, they would not have fought one another. But Allah does what He wills.Quran 2:253