[Huliwang]

I remind you of what I don't want more than what I want. Yes, I want Paradise, the ultimate success but my foremost for me is not to go to hell. I fear hell.

I think I can say this about you. You don't fear hell because you think you're going to a good place in the hereafter. And you only want worldly success because you have nothing to look forward to in the hereafter, except for some fruits. What kind of life are you having? There is nothing to look forward to when you die while knowing death is coming. You must really hate to meet death.

I don't fear death because I am a Muslim. I practice submitting to God's will all my life and death is God's will. When it comes, it is by Allah's will and I submit to him

Blasterlord, I hope you read that.

If what you said is true, then you must be already a highly spiritually achieved person. Can you share what practice you do other than those daily prayers, Ramadan fasting and Quran readings? Are you an Imam?